a new year. 2010. flying cars? not yet. probably soon, I don't see why not. We should probably be able to sustain life and transportation without oil first. we need to set some goals, as a species. human. we need to break free from the rules forced upon us by this physical world, our culture, our government, and ourselves. was the world created with hate in mind? who was the first to hate? who was the first to love? humans are naturally loving and compassionate, as any animal is. we became too advanced for our own good which allowed individuals to lose sight of the big picture, and only see themselves. some of you are living in your own world, but you are blind. you can't progress on your own accord, you must learn and experience the world around you - not create the world you would like to see, or bend laws for your own good. karma is real, and can't be bent. the power of attraction is a law that mere humans cannot challenge, create, or destroy. the methods we have developed to live this life are corrupt, off course, degenerate, misleading, offensive, and destructive. life isn't about you or me. i don't even know what this life is about, or for. is there a purpose? there probably is. we are just a little marble floating in another marble, possibly inside a huge ball of energy that could fit into an atom if squeezed correctly. it makes you think about what is out there. are there walls containing the universe? is the room expanding forever? how do we know when it will stop expanding, and do we know for sure it isn't collapsing? all I can say is I've found a way of life that makes me happy, and content with knowing I am just a human, in my house, in my state, in my country, on my planet, in my solar system, in my galaxy, in the grand universe. the grandiose curtains of the universe are mysterious, yet I have learned how to manipulate laws to benefit myself - after understanding them and accepting what I cannot change. I can change a whole lot - but there is more that we can't. you have to understand, you can do what you want - we are built with a brain for a reason. it may be an experiment created by the universe for sheer entertainment, or maybe we really are making a difference, in the difference. we need consistence. lead the resistance. revolt against the shackles called the human misfits. its instinct. we need to re-think what we drink. does water give us life or did we train our bodies to require it? is it the mind accepting the water as nourishment, and telling your body you are ok now? or could I train my mind to accept some other energy source? probably not in this life time, but maybe.

thank you


chad

Well hello there xanga. been a while eh? so, life is back on track. the last 9 months has been one life lesson after another. After I didn't return to Temple for Spring 08, I kept going down a bad path. Associating with the wrong people and forgetting who the good ones are, even if they aren't 100% good. Then, in May, I was admitted to the hospital for a critical lung condition. While there, I met the person, the man, that I WANT to spend my life with. We didn't know at the time, but we were made for each other. He helped me fix my life, and I helped him come out, and become truly happy with himself and his life.
I am now at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh, and my boyfriend is at Pitt. We are doing very well despite some fuck ups and rocky times - we always work it out. I have learned so much about life, and living in the right, and living with someone that you love and that loves you. Love is tough, but I believe in it, and I believe in respect, and truth, and loyalty, and monogomy, and passion, and honesty, and life.
I am majoring in Web Design, something that has always been a passion of mine, something that I am talented at and something that I can do for the rest of my life. Theater and singing has moved to the back burner until I get my life on track and have a solid reliable career. I am planning on re-exciting the passion of theater that I have, but I am content with waiting and working hard to get there.
My parents - are now divorced, but doing very well, regardless. My dad is 72 and Mom is 51 I believe, and my dad's age sometimes scares me. I know he has a while, but 72 is getting up there. I love them both and thank them for seeing me through the worst time in my life and never giving up. Jenny is also a great part of my life and I thank HER for being there for me too.

My brain is fried for now, but I think I just wanted to write some things out.

See you in a few years :)

Chad D. L. Lewine
loves
Vincent A. L. Leasher

xanga died,

myspace is going

isss alll about facebooookkkk

but we cant let bitchesss fuck it upppp