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Wednesday, 21 October 2009

Currently
The Blueprint 3 [Explicit]
By Jay-Z
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evolving

today I tripped on shrooms for the first time. always wanted to do it, just never had the opportunity until recently. I can't explain it, but I conclude that it was worth it, as does trey. the afterglow made me feel like it was Christmas night - a warm, content, totally positive, mellow feeling. i got up and cleaned my apt very well, then proceeded to go grocery shopping - although I overspent a little bit, I am confident in my money situation. money is always coming in and i am always safe. its perfect. i dont question things in life anymore, i just know that everyting is good, and that i'm on my way to my dream.
relationships are wonderful. being single is awesome. vince was an amazing part of my life, we helped each other grow immensely, and i dont regret anything. we both need to move on to better lives, and meet new people - it will only help us get farther in life.
my mind is open to new thoughts, and ideas. new ways of thinking, i.e. - knowing that I can do anything (feasible) that i want. the drive is so strong just to perform menial tasks because everything I do is starting to find a spot in my life. i dont know if that made sense.

either way - i just needed to document that my life is starting a new cycle, and I have evolved into a new level of understanding and knowledge.

www.myspace.com/chaddouglaspa

goodnight,
chad

Tuesday, 04 November 2008

Currently Listening
My Paper Heart
By Francesca Battistelli
Forever Love
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Well hello there xanga. been a while eh? so, life is back on track. the last 9 months has been one life lesson after another. After I didn't return to Temple for Spring 08, I kept going down a bad path. Associating with the wrong people and forgetting who the good ones are, even if they aren't 100% good. Then, in May, I was admitted to the hospital for a critical lung condition. While there, I met the person, the man, that I WANT to spend my life with. We didn't know at the time, but we were made for each other. He helped me fix my life, and I helped him come out, and become truly happy with himself and his life.
I am now at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh, and my boyfriend is at Pitt. We are doing very well despite some fuck ups and rocky times - we always work it out. I have learned so much about life, and living in the right, and living with someone that you love and that loves you. Love is tough, but I believe in it, and I believe in respect, and truth, and loyalty, and monogomy, and passion, and honesty, and life.
I am majoring in Web Design, something that has always been a passion of mine, something that I am talented at and something that I can do for the rest of my life. Theater and singing has moved to the back burner until I get my life on track and have a solid reliable career. I am planning on re-exciting the passion of theater that I have, but I am content with waiting and working hard to get there.
My parents - are now divorced, but doing very well, regardless. My dad is 72 and Mom is 51 I believe, and my dad's age sometimes scares me. I know he has a while, but 72 is getting up there. I love them both and thank them for seeing me through the worst time in my life and never giving up. Jenny is also a great part of my life and I thank HER for being there for me too.

My brain is fried for now, but I think I just wanted to write some things out.

See you in a few years :)

Chad D. L. Lewine
loves
Vincent A. L. Leasher

Monday, 19 November 2007

Currently Listening
Cartel
By Cartel
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so im trying out this new browser called Flock that combines all your online social networks like facebook, xanga, photobucket, youtube, etc into one place. its kinda complicated but seems like it will be awesome.

-chad

Thursday, 12 April 2007

xanga died,

myspace is going

isss alll about facebooookkkk

but we cant let bitchesss fuck it upppp

Tuesday, 10 October 2006

Currently Listening
Chroma
By Cartel
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hello.

everytime I sign on to xanga, there are more features. since xanga isn't blocked at schoooool, people should get back on it, but quietly.
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xanga is trying to do all the things myspace can but they are too far behind and really are a different type of service. ill have had my xanga 4 years in january. damn thats a long time. ill have had myspace 2 years in march.

I'm pretty "lonley" in terms of a romantic relationship. it sucks when people are right in front of you, but they probably don't know you, or they just haven't accepted who they really are, and thats ok. because you cant be who you want in highschool but you can "breakout" in college when you dont have a reputation and everyone knows you as what you have been for the past 3 years.

blahh blah blah

-cD-

for old times sake !